1/31/13

I got the new prescriptions from the old sleep doc today. I was expecting to get shafted - drive to the office 15 miles away after hours and not have anyone there. Turns out there was someone there, as promised. I had to ring twice to get a response, but I did get the scripts. I was also able to fill them.

On the way to the pharmacy, the front and back right blinkers got stuck on. Even when I turned the lights off and the car off they were still stuck on. I did some checking online and found the most likely cause was the trailer control box went bad. I unplugged it and everything works again. I did break a little plastic screw while I tried to take apart the blinker. Hopefully nothing will fall off the truck and it it won't cost too much to replace it.

I finally got my project done at work (data warehouse). Or at least the infrastructure part. Now I just have to write reports against it.

1/29/13

Quick one tonight. Had gaming. It was good, though short. The PCs died in the first combat, though they were mostly stupid and charged into combat when they knew they were out-gunned and out-manned. I got a free salad at Saladworks. I apparently had enough points. I called a hand full of doctors today. I didn't actually get in touch with anyone, but I still made calls. 1 place wasn't open and 2 places didn't pick up, even though I know that 1 was open right then and there. I also stopped by my GP to pick up a script for an ultrasound.

1/28/13

I'm not feeling too bad today. My mood is better and I'm not as tired as normal. Worked on some stuff for gaming tomorrow night. Made a few additions to the rules, fleshed a few things out. I think it will go well. I downloaded a neat new live wallpaper for my phone.

The Reward

A good video. Worth watching.

1/27/13

Forgot to post yesterday. I was also having a really bad day. Second one in a row. So let's see if I can make up for it today.

Gaming was last night, and I had fun, even if I was really tired. 

I got my electronic kits in the mail Friday. I'm going to try to put one together today, though I may need to hit the store for some solder. 

We got cold water running in the kitchen yesterday (hot water is still out). Every year our pipes freeze, and I haven't found a way to prevent it yet.

I'm feeling better today. I hope I'm over the crap that pissed me off for the past 2 days. 

I upped my pledge for the Fate Core Kickstarter today. I really struggled with it, since I'm spending $125 on it now. But I have it thanks to the lottery tickets, so I might as well get it. There's lots of good stuff I'll be getting. 

I also bought a PowerBag on Woot yesterday. Normally $140 marked down to $40. I've been eyeing these for a while. And I need a new bag. The one I have is just a little too small (and I wish it had more pockets). 

1/25/13

Days like this make writing this hard.

Gaming was tonight. That's good. Jay and Shayna showed up and I haven't seen them in a few months.

It snowed tonight. Only an inch or so. It's pretty, even though people drive like idiots when it snows. I've always liked the snow.

The walk is already shoveled since we were having company.

1/24/13

Got my blood work done this morning. Something like 15 tests. They only needed 4 vials though. The phlebotomist was amazing. I didn't even feel the needle go in.

I made some good progress on my project at work. I'm behind schedule, so it's good to find a solution that should get me back where I should be.

I was relatively awake today. Not great, but doing better than normal.

1/23/13

Went to the doctor today to talk about sleep and other health issues. She ordered a bunch of other blood tests and game me referrals to a new sleep doctor and a neurologist. We'll see what comes of it. But she's a good doctor. Willing to help, seems concerned, smart enough to say she doesn't know when she doesn't know.

We're changing health insurance at work. The new plan has "rewards" for going to the gym, which will be nice. Since it's not reimbursement, I may get a check for more than the membership costs. Can't beat that with a stick.

Went to the gym tonight and didn't feel too bad afterwards. Normally I feel like crap afterwards - run down, tired, and just lousy.

1/22/13

I worked from home today because I was too tired to get up and in. I'm lucky I have a job that lets me do that.

Gaming was tonight and I think things went well. Though only 1 character survived, it doesn't ruin my adventure, and in fact probably enhances it.

Had a dentist appointment today. While I don't enjoy going, I have a pretty good dentist and insurance. A little pain now it probably better than a lot of pain later.

1/21/13

Having a really rough day today, but here goes.

I got some time/energy to work on an adventure for gaming tomorrow. I think I have a pretty solid idea for the plot and it will let me try something out that I've never done before.

It snowed tonight. it was just a dusting, but I like the snow.

The wife let me try to take a nap when I got home from work. I didn't actually fall asleep, but everything was quiet and even the dog laid down and didn't make noise.

1/20/13 #4

My brother in law got me 2 scratch off lottery tickets. Both were winners. I'm now $205 richer!

1/20/13

Going over to my mother in law's to celebrate my birthday today. Though I still don't feel completely comfortable with her and my brother in law, it speaks volumes that I prefer to go over there than spend time with my own family. Less drama (usually) with the in laws.

Found "More", which I've been looking for for the last few days. Incredible short.

I've interacted with a few people on G+ and feel like I've contributed to their projects or engaged them on some level. It makes me glad I can talk to people I may or may not know in real life and enjoy a sense of camaraderie from it.

More

This terrifies me and makes me unbelievably sad. But I think there's something good that can be taken away from it. 

1/19/13

Let's call today a day of (small) accomplishments.

I went to the gym and worked out. We've been trying to hit the gym 2-3 times a week since September. I've noticed it tires me out like crazy, which is something I need to talk to the doctor about (appointment on Wednesday).

I trimmed the hedges, hopefully complying with the police and judge and thus avoiding a fine.

I spent some good time with the wife today. We didn't do anything, we just hung out and cuddled. But it's nice and definitely something good.

1/18/13

I woke up feeling relatively good this morning. Not great, but ok. I wasn't nearly as fatigued as normal and my mood was fair. Coming from someone who's struggling to get a sleep disorder under control, that's a big perk.

Gaming tonight!

I gave a shout out to my brother Wes the other day, but it's the triplet's birthday today (including Wes). It was tough growing up with them, they're all still struggling to find their places in life, and it's still tough to have them in my life, but I'm glad they're around. Each is different, with their own strengths and weaknesses, and I think we've all come a long way in life. They've each helped me out in some way and I hope I've helped them.

1/17/13

First and most importantly, I was finally able to take advantage of my birthday gift from my wonderful wife.

After 3 cups of caffeine, I started feeling better today. I was still tired, but my mood finally improved, I was able to get some stuff done at work, and I wasn't quite so tired.

I just ordered 2 electronics kits that I hope I'll have fun putting together.

1/16/13 #3

We won!

Court

I have the day off today (that's a good thing, right?)

I have the day off because I'm fighting a ticket I got for my bushes being too high. The ordinance they're charging me with is highly subjective (so subjective, that when a police officer cited me for it a few years ago, I called public works who drove by and said there was no problem). I have all the photos printed out and I'd ready to fight. So I guess that's another good thing - my willingness to stand up for myself.

Depending on how things go, my third thing may be winning. If not, I'll have to come up with something else.

Realism

I don't know how I feel about this. It seems like a downer until the end. But it talks about happiness, forced optimism  and how we might deal with life. 

1/15/13

I'm thankful I've found True Love. It's not a perfect love. It takes work and sacrifice. But it's a love that keeps me going. It's a love that makes me want to keep going. My wife is amazing.

I'm thankful for my family, even if they can't get along. Especially my brother Wes. He's the kind of friend who would help you move bodies. And as my brother, he'd help me make the bodies, too. He may not be 100% reliable. But when I need him he's there.

I'm thankful my dog's not dead. I had dreams the other night that he'd been cut in half and died. That's been sitting on me the past few days and I'm glad he's still around.

3 Good Things

It's my 37th birthday today. When I look at my life, I know rationally that I've accomplished a lot. I'm very lucky and am grateful for all of the things I have. But there's a part of me that just doesn't feel like I've done enough. I feel like I've been squandering life.

This blog is an attempt to remind me of what I've done, what I have, and why things aren't as bad as I think they are. I hope that if I post positive things about my life, I'll start to respect it more and come to terms with how I feel. And maybe feel better about things in general.

So here I am. I plan to post 3 good things each day. They may be all in the same post, but there will be 3 things. They may be things I've done, things I'm grateful for, or just things that inspire me. I'll try to not use the same ones too often and to try to keep my backhanded comments to a minimum.